I submitted our video for the "I Believe" video contest. They extended the deadlines, so voting doesn't start until next week. When my video is posted, I will let everyone know.
I know that I probably won't win, but making the video was therapeutic. In some ways it was sad putting together a video that highlights all of the crap we've been through over the last 2 years- a year of trying on our own, all of the testing, an IUI, heading to the RE, more testing, 3 more IUIs, an IVF with a canceled transfer, a second IVF, a chemical pregnancy, and now potentially moving on to donor eggs. Even typing it out just now it seems like a lot of crap. I guess the good way to look at it is that we've been through all of this crap and we've come out on the other side stronger for it.
Today I was also able to talk about our potentially needing an egg donor without crying, which is a big step for me. I had lunch with a coworker and she had asked if I was still planning on cycling again in January. I managed to have a conversation about our terrible WTF without tearing up. I feel like I am making progress.