I still had a super light ghost of a line this morning, that or I have serious line-eye. I don't think it's possible to get a lighter line, so I am calling my trigger out of my system.
Now for the scary part, looking for the BFP. It's weird, testing the last few says wasn't scary or nerve wracking, because I knew it was my trigger. Now it's the real deal, I'm looking for my BFP.
I was so positive and calm the first few days after my ET. We transferred a good quality early blast and had a good shot at pregnancy. Now the closer we get to beta day, I am feeling less positive. I just feel like there is no way that this worked. Out of two IVF cycles we had 14 eggs retrieved and 8 fertilized normally. Of those 8 only 3 were decent quality (fragmentation and # of cells) on day 3 and only 1 made it to blast. What are the odds that this one lonely embryo is chromosomally normal and able to implant? I just feel like the odds are against us.
To make it worse, I haven't really had any symptoms. Maybe a little cramping, but it could also have been bloating/gas pain. My freaking boobs haven't even been sore. I've had more "symptoms" on Clomid cycles, when I didn't even supplement with progesterone.
Maybe I am just preparing myself for the worst. Since we didn't have anything to freeze, if this cycle fails, we'll be starting over with a third fresh IVF. Of course I will do whatever it takes, but financially we can only do so many fresh cycles. I am also afraid of what my RE will have to say if this cycle fails. Our cycle results so far have pointed to an egg quality issue. Is there even a point to trying again with my own eggs?
Please let this cycle work.