So IVF #3 starts tomorrow and I am trying to decide how I feel about it. I am not really excited or nervous, or scared like the last two cycles. I just am. I force myself to sound positive when I talk about this cycle, but I don't think I really feel positive. I don't feel negative either. I kind of feel that I am in emotional limbo and oddly I think I am ok with that.
I think that part of the problem is that I feel like this cycle just snuck up on me. Usually I spend so much time planning everything out and I just didn't this cycle. My consents are notarized but not filled out, I still need to call the pharmacy and schedule my delivery date for my meds, and I am sure there are other things I need to do but I just don't feel like being crazy planner lady this cycle. I'll get everything done when I get around to it.
I've been telling people that I don't have a resolution this year, but maybe I do. Maybe my resolution is that I am not going to be a crazy stressed out hormonal mess this cycle. We'll see.